reorientation
2007-07-15 8:10 p.m.

trying to write today. i don't know why lizards always end up crawling into my car engine. i also don't know what i'm going to do with half a chocolate bar.

have i spoken to another human being today? yes, the girl at the store who recommended the cookies at borders.

tv on the radio:
"your voice was a satellite spinning next to me."

i'll wait for that idea.

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curtis and i invented a drink with the box of liquor that the lovely toni left us. here.

THE EASTER BASKET
aka "The Toni"

half godiva white chocolate liqueur
half gran marnier

serve over ice. stir? add milk if you need it. or whatever.

it's better than you might think.

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me and this chocolate bar are going to finish this story.

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i miss all the people. here's the church, here's the steeple, open the doors, where're the people?

it's sunday, dipshit. summer b on a sunday. they'll come back, the churchgoers, but it won't be for two weeks.

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i know i have a tendency to ruin things. i'm a little dab of black paint, dirtying your watercolors. and i don't know what i want.

sometimes things get so complicated, i forget which way is up. i have to re-read old documents to remember what i've been through, which way i want to go.

it's a hot blizzard.