zizz
2007-03-19 12:25 a.m.

break is almost over and i have accomplished a lot.

the only things i have NOT done are
1) finish the mezzanine
2) the whole thing where i run away and marry a man and then have a fight with him. that whole thing.

this is the closest i have ever come to completing an arbitrary set of goals of my own creation.

i'm internally restless.

i spend time looking at my horoscope and my compatibility with different signs.

it always amazes me how taurus i am. no one else cares so here's the link for me.

other ways i entertain myself:

-continuing the ex-book. i have two drawings so far.

-making spreadsheets of my weight loss, and my future weight loss. for instance, if i lose X per week, how much will i weigh in august? things like this.

-filling out jury duty questionnaires

-applying eyeshadow

-eating fruit-on-the-bottom mango yogurt, where the mango tastes like soap

-waiting for my sunburn to peel

-making lists of ways i can distract myself. against what?

against. AGAINST! I KNOW! I KNOW!

i won't write anything good until i am satisfiedddd

there's something to be said for a stark contrast in temperature, a juxtaposition between cold air and a hot bed,

but i've always been a fan of the time when sheets aren't necessary--the air is tepid, balmy, skin-like.

you and i will scissor-kick our legs like we're drowning, feeling our feet against fabric and loving the zip-zip-zizz-zizz.

that's the time i lay on my side and request to be covered completely, pressure from all angles--sandwiched, wrapped, boxed in, whatever you can manage, enclose me and hum in my ear.

you say, "remember the time i had five fingers? and you had a shoulder-- remember the time they met?"